““I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.””
Marilyn, you said it better than anyone.
We all seem to have two or many more distinctive personalities that surface at the most opportune or inopportune moments…one minute I recognize the words coming out of my mouth, the next minute a sub self with her own set of agendas takes over the show and orchestrates circumstances and events that often hurl me straight into a wall.
Then another sub self gets the clean up job, one who is far more poetic and able to quote great Buddhist scriptures.
This is all imperceptible to the friend, or onlooker, but raging inside are my many selves, many riders on a big yellow bus of a personality, that isn’t even who I am.
At all.
Or you.
Beyond our many little people, we are a consciousness so huge and vast, if we really understood our power and who we are, we would bow down and weep to look up at our reflections.
But my personality is a wild bucking colt, wobbly in the knees and often times, kicking up dust wherever she goes.
Sometimes the dust clears open a glorious expanse….sometimes it will leave you coughing!